Carey Marcella McClintock

Carey wrote this poem when she was in the drug rehab center in April 2008.

Goodbye to Drugs

If I had known now what I didn’t know

then

I would have never been there for you to

befriend.

I consciously choose you for the last six years

To hide my insecurities and avoid my fears.

I gave up my standards, my morals,

my soul.

Finally reaching the lowest of lows.

I refuse to miss a minute more

of the life I now love and grown to adore.

This letter is to tell you, I’ve severed the ties.

I’m writing this letter as our final goodbye.

Carey wrote this poem about her recovery from drug addiction.

Just for Today

While the firmest resolve

I fully embrace,

Another chance at life

I refuse to waste.

My path of recovery

Grows stronger everyday.

I make this commitment

Just for today.

After Carey finished drug rehab and was staying with my Father awaiting trial, she wrote this poem.

I’m Sorry

For all the times I lost my temper,

For all the times that I was rude,

For all gifts that I was given,

Where I showed no gratitude.

For all the people to whom I was so cruel,

For all those I laughed at and acted like a fool,

Unable to see past imperfections,

Unable to see past my pride,

Your feelings I trampled all over

So on my high-horse I could ride.

For all the times I lied,

For all those I hurt along the way,

Not a day goes by that I don’t hate it;

I’d take it back every day.

For the only person I cared for was me and only me.

Now I’m truly sorry wishing I could make you see.

For all the times you were patient,

Truly a virtue I lack.

For all those I’ve let down,

I pray for a chance to turn around.

I realize how wrong I was.

I’m sorry everyone.